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Lately I found out that in this crazy senseless world there is you, and this by itself wouldn't matter a year ago, but today I have you involved in every piece of my life, and for that I say... I'm lost! what the hell will I do if you ever disappear?

There is something about you... you're never around, I never get to feel your arms protecting me from the cold, or your hands cuddling me, or your eyes watching over my every-step... but still, whenever I think of you all the loneliness around me seem to fade.

The distance between us doesn't keep you from being my company tonight. Isn't that totally insane of me? How I'm able to feel fulfilled just with the idea of you. Am I nuts? Completely.

Outside that door there is the real world, and when I'm there the though of you confuses me, and I rather not having them, but it seems like I'm being hunt by your sweet spell, and the delicious idea I have of you!!! Am I doomed to think of a guy so many miles away?

I can't figure out if its a blessing or a curse! I feel blessed to have this beautiful recessive angel in my life, but at the same time, he is the devil keeping me awake at night! I need it even when I don't... I'm one crazy little woman, and he is (in parts) the cause of it. Should I kiss him, or ask him to leave? But wait, I don't have the strenght to let him go. Oh no! He is part of me.

Again, I'm lost.

But I share the blame for that with you... I'm under this powerful spell, and the funny thing about it is that it only works if I believe in it.

It's still working... well, maybe I just need to believe something, right?

I'm so lost!

And I like it.

O-a-u